It's really totally free and clear in the end of the story. I'm deeply depressed and sorrowed. What's the happiness? What are the right things we human being pursuing? What's the meaning of life? Happiness is satisfying with what u have now and what u can get or achieve after ur struggle. Happy times were gone, Happiness are always on the way. Why should/must we catch up with those out of our range? Don't be too serious, nor too much desire for life. Treating life with leniency is forgiving urself. Do not double the hard & dark in ur life. "Seize the day", to some extence, is little of hedonism but a clear choice. Cherish what u have and be content with what the God awards u. Have a small goal, fulfill it, then u will get a tramendous surprise and be happier.
Nowadays, more and more people living in metroplis seem to trap into a twisty life. We work harder, earn more $, pay even more for living, including the health and the life. When u step ur first foot in this life, u could not stop whether u wanna and get deeper and deeper. It moves u mechanically. U r bounded by all around, housing, feeding, educating, promoting, and entertaining. U'll devote all ur life to make up all of these. Unconciously, u r getting older. When u look back, u find there is nothing but vanity. Eventually, u get the free u want, and u find u r right free, not just free from housing, feeding, educating, promoting and entertaining, but free from the truth of life. It's real clear at that time.
So, please be kind to urself. There should be not more kinder in the world. Life itself is too serious, and there is no need for us to add more.